An open letter to my second love,the one that really matters in my life.

To the man who taught me love exists,

 

Every First love gets recognition and credits, but you deserve recognition too. In fact, more than the first one because you made me believe in Love once again. For everything you thought went unnoticed, they didn’t. They are right in my heart and head all along. There are so many wonderful things you did for me that even a simple “Thank You” cannot suffice. But I am going to try 🙂

 

You loved me when I hated myself the most. Thank you for making me believe in love again after my heart was crushed into a million tiny pieces. Loving me was not easy at all. I know I’m hard to love. But you did it! You pushed the walls I built to protect myself from heartache. For that, I am eternally grateful.

 

The first time we met, I knew you will have a true impact on my life. This time I did not fall in love with you, falling hurts. I simply walked in love with you. It was beautiful!. I walk in love with you everyday-repeatedly. Thank you for being with me all the time(even from 1000 miles away).  You have given me a life full of happiness, warmth, stability and sometimes even fear (mainly of losing you)

 

You have always made me feel special and wanted. I wish to do the same for you. It’s time for you to know how much you mean to me.

 

Thank you for being my Best Friend. You are not just my boyfriend but a best friend too. Nobody can make me feel protected the way you do. Loving my boyfriend who is my best friend who loves me back is a great feeling. Being with you, I now know how to feel accepted and loved. You are helping me grow. I am not the same girl who was insensitive and stubborn at times. Now, I want to be a better person because of you.

 

Thank you for showing me how I actually deserve to be treated. You loved and accepted me when I had no love to give you. I will always hate myself for being rude and insensitive towards you. Thanks for understanding the fact that I needed respect and love both. You have always been there for me when I needed you. You are the best support system anyone can have.

 

Thank you for not been ashamed of me. I love you more when you hold my hand in public and call me yours. You have no idea of my happiness when you are open with the thought of loving me. You love taking our pictures together and you tell your friends about me. I can never be more grateful.

 

Thank you for accepting me that I am broken. Your love makes me steady person. All my insecurities and hatred have vanished. Thank you for making me smile and putting me up. You very well understood the fact that I am broken. But, you were caring, supporting and understanding every minute of the day. Thank you for carefully handling all the pieces of the heart and putting it all in place.

 

Thank you for lighting up my world. Sounds a little crazy, though. But, that’s the truth. Your smile lights up my day. All my fears go away when I look at you. So, I can proudly say that you have brightened up my world. I feel lucky to have you in my life.

 

Thank you for giving 100% to our relationship. I know I never fought for you but I also know that you understand. I am sorry that I couldn’t really share my feeling with you but that’s sole because I was scared to get hurt. But, you always gave your 100% and gave many chances to our relationship. I promise to put in more than 100%.

 

Thank you for fighting for me when I tried to shut you away.  I know I made many silly decisions in the past out of assumptions and insecurities. I tried to go away from you because I didn’t want to go through any heartbreak again. But, you held my hand even then. You fought with me at times and made me understanding the purity of love and trust. You are the best I can have.

 

Thank you for being patient with me. You lift me on my lowest days and go through every day with a smile on your face. Initially, I wasn’t really confident at you which made me mad for no reason. But you were polite and patient with me.

 

Thank you for loving me the way I was. My ex always criticized me for every single thing. and so I tried pleasing him. It took a while for me to realize that he needs to accept the imperfect me. You are different, I can totally be myself when I am with you. Thanks for loving me unconditionally.

 

First love is not bad, but with you, I would say second is the best.

 

I don’t know where life would take us in the next 50 years, I don’t know if we will be madly in love or have hatred for each other. But I promise to love you however long our forever is.

 

From,

Your first love that loves having you as her second love

 

• YOU & ME